Growing up, I had the usual dreams of stardom and business ownership, helping people and helping animals. I knew, though, that I really just wanted to be a mom. It was my only true mission and my one and only goal. I happened to marry pretty early, never thinking about the "kid factor" at the time and, long story, but I ended-up having two kids nine years apart and two step-kids through a seriously long span of motherhood. I managed jobs along the way, landing positions that, first and foremost, worked with my kids' lives and schedules. I would not have lived my life any other way.
Looking back, it could be said that I valued my kids above myself, but I realize that it was more that I valued my values above all else. And I would not have changed these major life decisions for anything! I actually did pretty well for myself, working within the “kid” parameters, although, these life decisions charted a resume that is somewhat less than the real me, surely not true to my heart, and hardly leading down the path toward the life I now want for myself. I don't want a U-turn, but it is time for one Hell of a sharp turn!
morgueFile photo "xenia"